Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain bloomed behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that autumn, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with intense pain around a single eye that persists for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches usually start with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number fell to four percent when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery which delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.

National guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which apparently soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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